hello

good morning everyone!

i’ve just updated my site! (yes it is a blank slate currently)

there’s honestly lots to share and some parts of me wish to explain it all but as i write, i also wonder, what’s the point? of course there are many thoughts and things that i need to release, yea, but they need not hold so much weight.

so here is an update that is fair to myself and hopefully my readers too

• i ended my contract in japan early and moved back to canada to receive medical treatment after being diagnosed with a life-threatening condition. adjusting to the very place i once tried to escape has also been challenging; however, we are making progress.
• i also (unknowingly/was a dumbass for not getting enough information and) got hooked on a benzodiazepine that the doctor prescribed me for 18months in japan that was once abused so badly in Hong Kong that they banned it and it isnt allowed for sale in North America/UK.. oops?!? i am now tapering off the drug and working through the side effects (anterograde amnesia, extreme fatigue, impaired motor and cognitive functions, and more) with the help of health professionals, a better diet and an exercise regime
• i am finally back to sleeping in a bed! #BedlessSince2019

in regards to japan, i am still processing. i miss parts of my time there so dearly, especially the people i met and even some of the people i fell apart from. they made my life special at a certain time and i am thankful that we grew together even if we grew apart.

anyways, sparing all of us further embarrassing details that i will eventually grow past and maybe one day laugh at myself about..

i wanna wish you all a happy thanksgiving, mid-autumn festival, belated happy birthday and everything else!

yours truly,

A