part 1 of 2: i have survived

a year ago today,

i was completely done with life.

 

if u’ve been following along then it’s evident that my burnout last year came at due time when i prioritized others over myself, doing things that i thought would make others happy.. so as to bring myself joy/distract from my everlasting existential crisis

japan is one of the worst places to have mental breakdowns. (i wish i couldve kept evidence of horrific cases here, here, here, and here)

but as a completely unqualified yet experienced observer of their social system, and most systems if we’re being inclusive in my writing today, i can confidently say that..

THE SYSTEM IS BROKEn.

Of course it doesn’t take a genius to figure that one out.

WHere I got stuck though, was mulling in the injustices and inequalities, and preparing myself for the utter demise of mankind. The latter part of 2022- a yet ongoing attempt at recovery and healing, taught me that this utter demise is going to last decades at least and if I still need to continue to be on this earth (ugh), then I better do something to make my surroundings more bearable.

 

Living in a Japanese shithole (yesitsabeautifulandcheapshitholebutnonethelessanactualshithole) without running hot water and ROOM temperature at a constant 10 degrees in the dead of winter even when i have my heater running for 3 days straight, ain’t it.

THIS AINT’ IT.

Life in Japan is ALWAYS going to be glamourized. But as with a lot of glamourous things out there, what you see is rarely what you get. So you’re welcome for (probably) the realest, most authenticest- as fuck re-telling of life in Japan out there.

But guess what.. the party don’t stop!

Allegedly the original founder of the JET programme intended for us Assistant Language Teachers (ALTs) to return back to our home countries with deepened internationalism, to submerge into politics IN HOPES OF BECOMING PRESIDENT. I don’t know how to fact-check this information, all we know is that it is one of the top JET rumours out there. If you didn’t hear it here first, then come fact check me, thanks.

While you couldnt pay me 8 figures to sell myself soul to politics.. ^{because my soul is alrdy under custody of caffeine, sugar, and Adidas in that order,} I’ve been given new raison d’etre (reason to be.)

 

TAKING OVER THE WORLD WITH ART AND LOVE.

first, bread cuz no one will listen otherwise. and i am stil figuring out what this looks like in tangible terms. but simply put……

i am on a mission!

it’s for HopE! i’ve said it a bajillion times!

PLZ join me my cult, thAnks!

i think its a dope mission! i! hope! u! think! so! too!

 

Anyways, if you’ve read this far, consider this your initiation message. Send me a photo of clouds to confirm admission.

 

Happy New Year.

 

Welcome to the gang,

Love,

Anntanya