this is the milestone: sakura adventures ep 3

i have gotten rid of all my deadlines. (for the next 2 years, and 10 months anyways)

not to say that i dont have shit to do anymore.. o lawd the amount of shit that i have to do/need to do/want to do (is there a difference?) outweighs me, but ive just decided that i will do them when i do them.

with my physical energy around 25% , i just cant afford to push myself like i used to, so i’ve accepted that i must push the deadline instead. simple right? considering that deadlines for life don’t really exist outside our minds… except that this wild mind insists that we have to be on trajectory for all of my dreams by 29, or we die by 30- i swear to god im not doing another decade of this. so NO PRESSURE !! !!!!

but all the deadlines ive set otherwise- blogging every trimester/quadrimester/update every trip/whatever the fuck else this OCD brain of mine insisted that we needed to do.. those have been cancelleddddd. yeeeeet. freedom ^______^

there is really so much that i want to share, all the happy and the sad. my tree is growing large..

but for now, pls enjoy photos of my week of pretty pink sakura blossom tree appreciation. (does anyone belieb ive taken all of my photos on an iphone 5 for the past seven years?)