if you love everything that you have, you have everything that you need.
-K
the last question asked to me by a therapist was ‘what is one thing that you need after this session?‘ and for one rare moment, my mind went completely blank.
i was full and warm, sitting in a creaky but comfy chair, staring out at my personal sakura tree, in a cozy hut i could call home, though far from actual home, i know im surrounded by the love of family and good friends, living a life with no regrets and so i couldn’t come up with a single thing.
the previous therapist had asked why i push and trigger myself to anxiety n exhaustion and the simple answer is that i could settle for a comfortable, safe life but i know i will regret it for the rest of my life if i didn’t try my damn hardest to pursue my dreams while i had the time, energy and drive. my dreams might be crazy but i know i’ve already made it through the lowest parts and whatever happens in the end will be what the universe meant for me to have. if this is it for me then im at peace with it but i didnt come this far to only come this far.
as we push forward into the mountains and valleys, i want to appreciate the cherry blossoms for once again, allowing me to be a sappy pc of sht in the significance of a moment. (also i found the aforementioned photo in the post- thx tumblr 2011 archives)
here’s to everything i want,
A
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